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A GOOD QUESTION

2006-01-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? Maybe.. because there wasn't any someone in the first place... no crush no likes no loves....haha

a Xmas i don't wanna remember

2005-12-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD!! She is fine. This is suppose to be a double happy day... but at the same time a shocking and tired day. My grandma was unwell. Very unwell. I tot i almost lost her. We prayed. I prayed . Everyone was praying hard, tears was streaming down my face... on almost everyone else's ... Ambulance came and i went with it. It was a tough fight. But she won. Our prayers heard and answered. Thank you.

Pour My Love On You

2005-12-26T01:38:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to say exactly how i feel / And I can't begin to tell You what Your love has meant / I'm lost for words / Is there a way to show the passion in my heart? / Can I express how truly great I think You are? / My dearest Friend / Lord, this is my desire / To pur my love on you . Like oil upon Your feet / Like wine for You to drink / like water from my heart / I pour my love on You / If praise is like perfume / I'll lavish mine on You / Till every drop is gone / I'll pour my love on You

Surprise! Surprise?

2005-12-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

The day i got a lee hwa jewellery gift frm fp? sapphire eaarrings? hmm....?

Do you like yourself?

2005-11-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

The question is : do u like yourself? Do u? and u? and U? some times i hate myself.... i hated everything that happens in my life.... i hated the sheep in me.. hiding the lion in me.. I want to love myself,,, trust me.. i really do... so that i can allow ppl to love me... but unforseen circumstances forbade me..... i hate it.. i hate u ... i hate all of u out there who sees me thru the shattered colour glass bits... i m really tired.... really... sick of it.... sick of life...... i m really starting to hate it.. hate u... hate everything... i m like a slave to u??? I M ONLY HUMAN...... and so do u.... ur mistakes can be forgiven and solved.... *silently.... whereas for my hiccups... scareaming and shouting and throwing tantrum and throwing of things and hammering me and slamming ur stuffs is the solution to u .... I DONT THINK this is justifiyable to me as well. Dont wear a big tall hat if u do not have one BIG head my dear,... ur making me miserable.... like u i have only one brain(perhaps smaller), two eyes(smaller) , two ears(maybe a lil deaf at times, and have special ability where it does selective listening), 2 hands(perhaps slower) and 2 legs( tired and weak) ... u try to do what i do and ur already complaining..... asking me to be more effective? SO what makes u think that i can do it faster than u do?? for the hrs u spent every minute is kaching~kaching~ BUT for me?? Y m i doing all this for? lemme tell u .... bcause i have the attidtude... i m responsible....i try to believe to see and not to see tyo believe.. but everything that has happened and is happening... makes me draw myself away from it..i really doubt i can hold on any longer..... dear angels... pls help me.... and thanks for all the help that i received from u all whenever i need it.

Just Like Heaven

2005-11-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

my personal Movie review: "one of the best, a god-sent " i love it.. its so amazing. Fabulous. it is kinda brought me to a new level in my thoughts. i particularly like the part... when lizzie was finally sitting down *after her 'death'* that when she started thinking back, all that makes up of her memories of her life is nothing but work work work..... i dont wish this same thing to happen to me too...... but the differense is that she is a sucess doc... whereas i m a N-U-T-I stands for not-up-to-it PA....haiz...anyway ... today i was at Lifebookshop.. saw this wall plaque which i really like.. it attracts me... but itz $35.90... quite ex.. so still thinking abt it. its the only one with the angel..... on a cross..........

ADIDAS GOLD

2005-11-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

yeayea... i got a prezzie frm Sydney... from my monstrous BOSS.. lol... hahha a glamourous gold diamon studded shoe jewellery or what they call it... he call me from sydney to tell me.. it suits me.. yea... it suits me RIGHT.... oh yah.. i also went to get 2 pairs of glasses which cost me $230. VERy cool... retro? itz plastic.... as for the colours.. i shall keep mumm... till we meet... i wanna make u fall in love with................................................... the new me!! yeahyeahyeah... i think i am craxy...... have been splurging.... RETAIl Therapy... my gosh... oh yah... I WANNA watch the all about love starring Andy Lau wan... and also coming up.. Just Like Heaven.. who would like to be the honoured one? or honoured Grp? and i m currently busy with this particular book that caught my attention amongst the sea of books in Sans bookstore...... << Mister God, this is Anna>> i love it... although i m hardly halfway there.... heee.... today is so bored... my dearest khakis.... alll overseas.... all havin fun.. they left me... alone in this dark cold CAVE..... with a monstrous active volcano.... who knoes when it will erupt again....... and a whole lump of sh*t waiting for me to clear.... YIKEs...... i need u .... u there?

Never Cleaner

2005-10-20T00:33:00.000+08:00

i have never felt cleaner than today... i pratically went to the showers for 4 times....... i broke my record..... norally itz twice a day... feell like my skin is peeling... hahah

Tian Guo De Jie Ti

2005-10-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

I love this show... this korean dramas.. although i only started watching from the middle... have been catching every episode ever since... but one thing i can nv understand is y muz the female lead alwasy tearing.... and i mean ALWAYS... cry baby?? haiyo... but the romance btween the 2 leads is sooo romaantic... once again... itz only a fairy tale... only a soap opera/... drama.... hahah okko .. muz wake up my idea.. like what my boss lieks to tell me..,,, think my lil cousin is turning me into MIAN BAO CHAO REN.... she is simply feeding me with bread every now and then... yikessss... HELp!!!!!!!!! Haven been doing a lot of readings on angels .... increasing my knowlede.... hehe ...... lalalalla hmm.. my friend was telling me the other day that i m still living in my own world... placing barricades surrounding my world not allowing anyone any love to enter my world... yeah.... itz not easy to fight ya way to my world... try it ... (at leeast till now i have not found one person who got that kinda patience and determination to do so...... so where are u my princE??)

DIp me in Chocolate N call Me Dessert~~

2005-10-15T03:15:00.000+08:00

Okok,, so wassup with my title.. haha .. the other day while i was crossing the rd to Gateway office.. this van went passs me.. with this Quote.. haha.. is this a msg to me.. oopz.. aniway .. I CUT MY HAIR... arh....some says i look nice; refreshed... some says i look cute... and some... says i look like i have juz put a bowl over my head and cut my hair... HUinspirational... is rining in my head all the time.. yayah... got impact dao... ahahha what elsE?? seriously i dunno lei.... happy stuffs nt really have.... sad stuffs.... mmm.... right now ok le la... settle le.. but i m interested in angels.... any body can help??

##### Forbidden Fruit #####

2005-09-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

Help!!!! I don wanna try to take the forbidden fruit.... itz sinful.. but i cant help it.. it is already out of my control .. what m i suppose to do? My heart has already overcome my mind... YIKES~~~can somebody teach me? BottomLine : Anything is POSSIBLE........... n i mean anything at all... even without u trying... sometimes thing stilll happen.... u may not realise that it is already creeping around you..(in my case it is creeping , probably in other's it could be embracing). When u finally realise it is too late to drive it away ... u are it's target.. it has set it's mind on u.... BUT i m not , i'm not i'm not~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``

SmeLL of a Man.. and i mean a Man...

2005-08-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

*sniff*sniff* mmmmm... yummy... have anyone here ever really smelt a man? or what the chinese always call it the nan2 ren2 wei4? Hands up anyone? I did!! Itz exhilerating.... itz amazing .. itz fantastic... better than any perfume can do.. it simply turns the hormones of the other party to active mode... is this what they call attraction? chemistry? or theoretically chemical reaction? Serious .... i love that smell... it turns me on more than anything else .. more than Blvagari Aqva.. Seriously i dunno how to describe that feeling.. it's weird but it feels good..*winks* or maybe there's an attraction intialy already that leads to such a reaction... now i understand what some people and magazines talk about... it'z the smell... that really works...Yummy...... p.s: but beware..not all the guys nan2 ren2 wei4 u would be attratced to.. i wasn't attracted to my bro though.. hahah so my bro is safe... or i would be pouncing on hime now n then.. *grinzzz*

CalifOrnia here i come....~~~

2005-08-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

Yeah... i got a platinum membership card for California Fitness for about 3 years plus that cost my 2 bosses over 2 thousand dollarss.. so happy... haha... i will be beautiful... i will be feeling even better.... look better,,,, california here i come...... one step closer to my dream........ heeez....lalalalalalalalalalalllalalallallalalalallaal

Pre-BdAe dEprEssIon

2005-08-21T15:00:00.000+08:00

hAIz.... i am so sick of this Preparation of my birThday bash... I HATE It!!!! i simply have no time at all to do the planning and no time to even think about it...I hate it even more when i see other ppl are busy with my birthday preparations and yet i m doing nothing.. simply bcuz i have no time or even when i really can squeeze out some time i m tooo tired to do so ... Timings r always not right... EVRYthing
~~~~~~~~ ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I M A BEEEEEEE???????????????????
But in any case, i want to specially thank those people in my life who can understand my work committments and my time irregularity and sometimes couldnt make it to outings in which i kinda organise it. I totally appreciate u people out there. And to some pinch of u who cant be more considerate n think of others m cannot tolerate my inconsistence and busyness... all i can say is TOO BAD!!!!

Scandalicious vIrGin HK tRiP

2005-08-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

hey Peeps!!! i'M back frOm my vIrgin HK trip... (well.. not exactly vIrgIn bcuz i went there when i was very young... but could'nt remember a thing except for the killer whale at the Ocean Park and i got lOst in the marKet!!) This time it is completely different as i went there with my boss.. and another so=call ex bozz.. and a colleague. It was really fun... except for the rain. Luckily i brought my umbrella...we are staying near tsim Sha tsui ; Guangdong hotel.. (in which i was asked to do so...)
18 Prat Avenue.
Tsim Sha Tsui.
Kowloon. I went to lan kwai fang , temple street , nu ren jie, peninsula , Landmark. And i went clubbing.... It was really fun and impressive... the live band is really WooHOoo.... COOL.... love it .. and 2 guys are interested in me!!!! my god.... anyway... i changed the perception of my boss during this trip... i tot it was going to be a pressured trip but it was not... it was so gd...... hmmm.. ANd also.. to go there and not spend a single cent ...... except the things that u buy .... the feeling is good... hahaha *smiling away* i will try to fill u in the details when i have the time k?

vRooMM vRoOOm

2005-08-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. itz been quite some time since i drop by a bloggie huh? DId u miss me? Well.. i miss bloggin too man.... i was WAY too busy to have done so,, ANyway got some happening stuffs to update u guys.. i m gg HK on the 12/08/05. My gosh ... first time sit aeroplane go overseas since my little trauma when i was young. I really hope this would be a fruitful n fun trip.. P.S : i don wanna get scream at!!!! (u see i m going with my boss... yucks.. but he pays for it so who cares.. hahha) Yeahyeah... back to the subject.. i met a client of mine today.. so funny.. cuz my boss hp got water n was spoilt so he used mine n i have no HP!! BUt i still need to meet this client whom i have never seen him b4. so i told him i m wearing all back n will be standing nesr the mailbox across the road beside Raffles Hospital. i waited n waited till i see a white Subaru drove in... then suddenly this man came over n ask if i m Cindy.. we shook hands n he said : nice to meet u, Cindy. ( he was the first client who was so gentlemanly from the list of MY boss clients) He showed me to his Subahru... (though it looka bit beng but it was a whole new world inside.. i love it... ) He open the door for me... n waited till i get myself inside his car comfortably then he close the door behind me.. Inside his car , he was playing Kenny G's music. That was so cool.. n the way he drive is coool too... I was telling Shann.. that i like the Subaru car.. i felt a sense of security when i was sitting in it.. u know y>? cuz the seats will wrap u at the hip part.. u feel as though ur being hugged n protected.. my gosh.... Lurve it!!! n he was so Nice.... so sweet... so gentleman.. n we chat in the car.. Luckily he was married .. or i would fall in love with him.. haha.. his wife is so lucky.. who happens to be my client as well..Nice folks.. hehzz...

I love you... i'm sorry to made you doubt it.

2005-07-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

isn't the phrase sweet? mm....juz got to learnt it from watching The O.C. Will the gals ever hear such things from a guy in reality? i doubt... it always never happen.. right? Don't u ppl agree with me? We'll see........... it only happens in TV dramas..... yea? well okay..i dont even know what m i talking abt... penning off

virgin DRIVE

2005-07-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

I cant believe .. i tried to drive today.. a manual car... so fun... although is in a multi-storey car park only.. but it is damn cool.....didn't know itz tis complicated.... haha... i died car for almost 3 to 4 times.. almost drive CG up the wall... but CG is patient with me i would say.. i was seriously wondering : if i were the one teaching, i would have scream at myself.. hahah. hoping the next lesson be out soon.... =_)

Welcome to my Fu#kIn' Life

2005-07-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place, Like some how you just don’t belong, And no one understands you? Do you ever want to run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud, That no one hears you screaming? No, you don’t know what it’s like, When nothing feels alright, You don’t know what it’s like, To be like me! To be hurt, to feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked, when you’re down, To feel like you’ve been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, When no one’s there to save you, No you don’t know what it’s like, Welcome to my life Do you want to be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more, Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With the big fake smiles and stupid lies, While deep inside you’re bleeding? No you don’t know what it’s like, When nothing feels alright, You don’t know what it’s like, To be like me! To be hurt, to feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked, when you’re down, To feel like you’ve been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, When no one’s there to save you, No you don’t know what it’s like, Welcome to my life No one ever lies straight to your face! No one ever stabs you in the back! You might think I’m happy, But I’m not gonna be okay! Everybody always gave you what you wanted! You never had to work, it was always there! You don’t know what it’s like (what it’s like)… To be hurt, to feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked, when you’re down, To feel like you’ve been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, When no one’s there to save you, No you don’t know what it’s like, To be hurt, to feel lost, To be left out in the dark, To be kicked, when you’re down, To feel like you’ve been pushed around, To be on the edge of breaking down, When no one’s there to save you, No you don’t know what it’s like, Welcome to my life Welcome to my life! Welcome to my life!

Untitled

2005-07-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

I LovE how It is written Below.... it practically explains how i am now..... esp. the coloured wordings..... YIKES......................................................

" I open my eyes, I try to see, but I’m blinded by the white light. I can’t remember how I can’t remember why I’m lying here tonight. And I can’t stand the pain. And I can’t make it go away. No I can’t stand the pain. How could this happen to me? I made my mistakes, I’ve got no where to run, The night goes on, As I’m fading away. I’m sick of this life! I just wanna scream: ' How could this happen to me?' Everybody’s screaming... I try to make a sound, but no one hears me. I’m slipping off the edge; I’m hanging by a thread, I wanna start this over again. So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered, And I can’t explain what happened. And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done... No I can’t.... How could this happen to me? I’m sick of this life!!! I just wanna scream: " How could this happen to me??? " "

I'll Be THERE for YOU..............

2005-07-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

This pic means a whole lot ... it sends memories i will never forget... it awakes memories... that weighs in my heart.... the song too...

aRen't they lovely dovey.... love love love

2005-07-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

Do u see them?

There's nothing better than a great romance... to ruin a perfectly good friendship.

2005-07-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

Love this show.... u should go and watch n enjoy their company.... funny and touching and so real... hahaha

IT ACHING..... spINInG!@!@!@!!

2005-07-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

my goodness.. i am damn f$^#ing stress man... my work..... itz overwhelming? or m i juz stressing myself? help help!!!my boss says he got something to tell me tml morning.. forst thing in the morning... the last thing i want is him spoiling my morning, my day , my life... yucks... pretty disgusted... when will i get a peace of my mind... when will i find my dream job??? is it that i can take it no more? is it really so? i really dunno who to talk what so all i can do is send all my frustration here... i wanna faint... HELP..... somebody...... * WAving WHITE FLAG*** by the way.. Happy birthday DAR!!!!!

chalet on 1/7/05 - 3/7/05

2005-07-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

Yeah ... went to ah dar's 21st birthday chalet ..Really haven't been havuing such great fun for a very long time.. ever since i started working... (work sucks to the core....m i on the right track? i m starting to wonder... everyone seems to be telling me that i should leave already.. we'll see how.. if i really can take it no more.... i shall... i willl.....) ALright.. talking about the chalet... my god.. it was really fun i had with the crazy babes....not forgetting the surprise mini bday cake celebration on fri night... the Plenty of pics that we took.. enough to form an exhibition.. preparation of the food.. swimming... washing of the room.. washing and clearing up.. and our water war in the toilet.. hahahaha... screaming at the top of our voices... yah and terence and ralph came on sat night for the night.. had fun.. bcuz they as usual entertain us with their crappy jokes .. cold jokes... funny.. and yah thanks terence for bringing your guitar bcuz u promise to sing Hero for me.. and teaching me too.. *muacks * love u to bits... cheerios to our 14 yr of friendship... like what u said last night... the fantastic part is that we r still in contact.....so tired.. came back and i got concussed... my whole body aches... but the fun is irreplaceable..the memories will always stay in my heart my mind my soul.... i hope my birthday wil be this fun too!!!! heez..alright gtg.. rest... till i write again.........................

FLU moNSter arrives

2005-06-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

*ha choo* *sniff sniff*... my goodness.... flu monster arrive... juz came back frm the Doc... ate the medicine... 2 kinds that r making me very drowsy.. i felt 'higher' then gulping down 2 glass of vodka... my goodness... just finish watching Dolphin Bay (wel.. i forgotten what is the exact english name for it) aniyway, the chinese name for it is ' Hai Tun Wan Lian Ren'.. so nice... so touching... i had my tears flowing down my eyes... on most parts... it is such a romantic show...... mmm.... should go n watch it k? hahah..... welll most of the time i say it nobody cares too.... i like zhong xiao gang for his harsh yet soft character... love the character to bits.... and how dada is so caring , considerate, and always so supportive of tian bian. Splendour..... YESYES,,,the romance movie 'A LOt Like Love' starring Ashton Kutcher n Amanda Peet is onscreen officially tml..who will watch it with me? but now i pok liaoz.... cannot go anywhere.... the doc is so damn ex.... 38 bucks...... yucks.................. so drowsy.... penning off now.... tilll we meet again.....

gEyLang oUtIng

2005-06-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

my first time to geylang since i stepped into this world.. though the food is good but the sight just disgust me to the max!!! 'chickens' standing by the hallway.. waiting for dirty old mans... Dirty old mans lusting for them as if their eyes r gg to pop out... but i must admit that some of them have Really Gd figures.... hahah...And yes.. while i was walking past a lil hallway.. i say this chicken trying to eat up the uncle lo. n he love it.... my god.. we almoz fainted .. n i also saw a grp of guys standing around discussing whether to go in or not...... AIDS>...... irresponsible freaks...YUCKS>......aniway i went to eat tian ji zhou and beef hor fun and the tou jiang you tiao..*yummy* delicious...(went with shann, lun, ly & wl) shld go try next time..okie?? heehee....gotta part now... till my next adventurous day......

ChIonGsTer?

2005-06-12T04:35:00.000+08:00

*yawns* .. arghhh.. so tired .. but the moment i got back i got kena by my mum... SiGhnz...sianz man... wanna faint... but anyway i had fun today with the grp... (qp,jen,hy, peg and later joined by terence, ralph, BH and a new guy BK) first i went Devil's Bar with the gals.. then we went Lighthouse 65, where the guys joined us.. later me n peg went to colour Bar (i think) with the guys... Drank drank n drank..... till i gg to pengz already..tried Graveyard today... don't really like the taste .. but the kick is good..and i tried a new type of vodlka in Colour Bar (just along the street where the Icy bar cum Eskimo bar is.. hahah don't remember the name la....) i drank vodlka with watermelon something.. not very nice but at least better than vodlka with apple.... yucks.. voldka with the peach thingy (which BH drank) is really nice... nice ambience too... =)... anyway got a lil sehz.... haiyo...tummy not feeling well too as i din't really ate dinner but ate a lot of nuts with alcohol.. my god.. *faintz*... anyway i need to go now.....*yawns* chIaoz..

Bleeding profusely... and i mean PROFUSELY

2005-06-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

WOW... i can't believe it myself too... retail therapy... and i m broke... really broke man... i bought 4 pairs of shoes (2 heels, 2 slippers) from Charles & Keith. I bought CK summer perfume (LOVE IT TO BITS) for myself.. and CK Eternity for Daddy for Father's day.. Last year i bought Hugo Boss for him.. so this year i bought CK Eternity for him.... i spent close to 200 bucks... within a day!!!!! i m crazy.. but i need them... esp the shoes.......... okok... sinful... i hate myself...

BirthDay ParTY

2005-06-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Itz my mummy's birthday today... had steamboat for dinner... n chocolate cake... yummy.. heehee...possess by hungry hippo ... oopz.. haha... anyway.. today is a VERY HOT day.... while blogging i m perspiring.. i have bathed 3 times today... my goodness.. n itz not helping at all.... so sian... tml is the start of another week.. n guess wat.. i m nt the least lookin forward.... work again...... m i unhappy? i dunno... maybe at times bah..... haiz.... what m i trying to do? seriously i m a lil confused.... so scary like that..... working in hell.... like what ivy says... yah... and even CG is looking for a new job... n it leaves me now... all alone.... so lonely.. what shall i do??? maybe in the first place i should have get outta company.... i should have get outta here man... it will be less worrisome i suppose.... now what? what do i want??? i need to do some planning now.... ok *switching topic*... yes i saw u online today again.. Hoever..how difficult it is to show that a person is sincerE? seriously, the response (the feelings) i get in return is nt very positive... i really cant feel the sincerity in u, although u always say so... somebody juz tell me how difficult it is to show one's sincereity?? or is it bcuz everyone's definition of 'being sincere' is different? i hope i can find the ans soon.... real soon .......... peace out... *singing: God will make a way , when there seems to be no way; He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me....*

sicK

2005-06-05T04:59:00.000+08:00

*yawns*.. itz gg to be 5am in the morning.. just came back from drinking with Ralph n Peg. Heard ppl say that when u drink beer u cannot eat durians.. BUt.. i ate before i was jio by Ralph to go drink.. Think he was sad abt some of his personal stuffs... n need some companion... n here i m again.... =) do u think this will kill me? would this be the last blog posted by me... will i not wake up after i fell asleep? haha.. i dunno.. if u dont see me posting again probably.. i would have left this world... For now.. i m just feeling a lil cranky bcuz of the lack of sleep n my tummy is feeling a lil uncomfortable due to (durian+tiger beer) mix.. haiyo... *yawns*..so sian.. next weekend might be burn as i may have to go back for work for OT..... w/o pay..... *sobz soBz* i am really very tired.. but i dunno what i m tired about... maybe i m just bored.... n lonely... (singing Akon's Lonely: lonely.... i'm Ms lonely... i've nobody... to call my own...woooo ) hahha... oki.. shall go rest now... have been waiting for someone online but nv manage to get to meet.. haiz... fate... mizz ya.. chiaoz.. wish me best of lucks kkk???

LoveIsSomethingThatEverytimeYouBelievesInIt,ItGoesAway

2005-06-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

aM i right? or was it the time frame?

lost faith

2005-05-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

So sianz..why all ppl r like that? I m like a sponge...when u need me, u see me.. when u don't, u don't even know i exist..Yes.. thatz how i feel.. damn.. so sad.. yah.. when things happen the first person u know to dial is me...but when i need u .. u were almost nv there... nv.. Yah.. ppl say i should feel honoured that when things happen i m the first to come into their mind .. the picture... but does anyone knows how it feels? Seriously it feels abit like 'being used' i m so irritated... u being cold n sometimes say things that hurt me(which u probably have no intentions); i would rather u don't let me know.. at least happy memories will be there.. where were you? Having fun day by day... forgetting having such a fren.. forgetting that someone who tried all means to help u when u r in trouble.. when u r sad.. when u wanna do special things.. it seems like i'm outta ya life.. no more... in which i used to be proud to say that part of ya life i see myself... but now... everything is gone... all bcuz of one bottle of sweets. (only yi tui knows what i m toking abt bah... our lil secret). I m just utterly disappointed...once again... n i tot u r different... from the others...............................

So Sweet.....

2005-05-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

Last night went to watch <<Monster-In LAw>> with Ivy @ 1150pm @GV.. so nice the show.. Kevin is so sweet... if u had watched the show then u will be able to understand what m i trying to say.. Cheers to the part when Charlie was at the beach walking the dogs and Kevin ran up to her n say hi with 2 takeawayz coffee( like what u can get from Starbucks). While trying very hard to prove to Charlie that he is not gay; Charlie turns around n ask him what is the colour of her eyes ( take note that this is only the 4th time that they met)... I shall nt tell u whatz his ans... To me (as well as to CHarlie).. itz not about if he has got the right ans BUT how he answered... how he elaborated the details... so His ans touched our hearts; at least for mine.. so sweet... ALso there is this part where CHarlie was helping out at her fren's caterer at Kevin's party.. she was so engrossed in him and what he n his grp of frens were talking about that she answered to one of the qns... leaving a shocked and embarassed Charlie. She qucikly excuse herself.. n Kevin went after her.. She apologize for eavesdopping their conversation but Kevin tod her: 'you should apologize for nt staying around to talk to me'.. so sweet... unfortunatly he is someone whom will only appear in fairy tales........ so contd to dream baby... haha

astonished

2005-05-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

Thanks Casey for ya concen... seriously... i really think THIS is so weird... communicating thru my blog? i would really appreciate if u could drop me a mail or something... by the way.... do i know u? haha... i have this feeling that i've known u.. or probably u know me.. hey.. what m i toking abt now.. again.. haizzzz....so bored n lonely n busy...seriously i really cant understand (can anyone juz enlighten me??)... how can a person say he/she likes or is interested in u juz by looking at a lame, stupid, eye tricking, colour photo...the photo dont speaks of the person's personality; character n temper. These ppl r juz PLAIN shallow.... shallow is the words i describe such ppl... juz by looking at a person's picture n telling him/her how much u love him/her... YUCKs... i m irritatingly DISGUSTED. Anyway this DOSEnt work for me.. i REPEAT: this dosent work for me..... WHy m i still getting such messages ..... yah ... telling me to be frens... ultimately asking me if i m attached before even understanding me( probably the 1st or 2nd time that we talk)... hahah... what the !@!##$ . weirdos.... weirdoz..... aniway learnt from Lun that F wanna buy perfume for me... so happy... Bvlgari... but didnt got it.... cuz the store close le.. haiz... i LOVE Bvlgari Aqua Homme( a new edition if u have no idea) for men.... *sniff-sniff*.. mmmm so nice... it turns me on.. hahaha

yet another post?

2005-05-26T13:54:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. can feel i nt so high today le huh? Moody monster had caught me i guess or was it ZZZzz monster? yah.. went to watch Amityville Horror on mon night at lido with yitui n a new fren eric...saw him before with my other frens but didnt get to know him....anyway the show IS scary but the ending is really lousy.... haiz... i wanna watch the romance movie 'A Lot Like Love' starring Ashton Kutcher & Amanda Peet .....*hopefully by that time i would be able to watch with that special someone* n the animated movie Madagascar... anybody in ? yeayea.. anybody watched the O.C??? oh my gosh i love it to BITZX... ryan n seth so naughty n cute n sweet at the same time... love the song ' If you leave' by nada surf... go listen if u have a chance... itz cool.. heezz. Oh yes... i m so happy... my friendster .. i have broke my record.. to date it had already been viewed 101 times... WOW.... haha..it may nt be a big number to u but to me yes.... a lot of things dosent seem to matter to u... every single word... every little action.. but to me it means Heaven n Earth.. it means a lot in my heart.. n if u ever did something to break my heart.. i will be so sad so sad...n yes.. u did.. my world shaked when i heard you say it..from u.. from u..sobz sobz.. i wasnt sure anymore... i wasnt sure i was too sensitive or... but i really feel broken. Does this means period to everything? God help.............

What goes around comes around, what goes up, must come down...

2005-05-22T15:19:00.000+08:00

heyhey..i'm back.. surprise to see Casey's comment again.. hahha...so weird communicating thru blog? do u have a blog anyway? email or MSN? Anyway my email is dydy84@hotmail.com ....feel free to email/msn me my friends...heez.. ok ..aniway , as promised to update you guys what is the current agenda of my life as per my previous post, letz Talk about the movie 'House of Wax'.. so GROSS.... scare the hell outta me.. n i screamed at some pt of the movie.. hahha..can even wanna back out watching halfway... BUT what kept me sit rooted to my seat is the charm of the cute guy in the movie... his real name is .... *tadda~~* CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY... my gosh aint he cute..so charming.. hahah.. ya n PAris Hilton is such an extra in the show... so ugly... died in an awkward position in the show.. seriously.. putting super glue on the lips to shut the hostage's mouth up is a pretty new thing to me.. *amazed* i tot normally they put socks or clothes in their mouth.. haha.. n the cutting of the ankle using the big scissors... sewing it up after that then being waxed ALIVED....so helpless.. there's nth u can do... u cant even cry out loud.. no strength.. only whine weakly and tears juz rolled down your face... so sad..... so scary... ok... lets go to the next topic..i unintentionally went to have my fortune told... but some things cannot be said here.. haha the interesting part is when she asked me if i liked to eat jap food.. i say ya... kinda.. she say i was a jap guy in my past life.. so interesting right? then she was toking about my love life n my career..oh yah toking about career.. she also said .. i can do business.. got a business mind..? well i do think otherwise... frm what i see now like nt lei.. haha.. she also mentioned that i m a person who can hold 2 careers simultaneously... wow... impressive huh?.. hopefully... n that i will own a landed property in future( yah... like real...still have to work hard for it wan kayz.. so u u ppl out there don think i will sit there n wait for this chance to come to me k..)... n that i will 'wang4 fu1'...whoever marries me i will bring the person luck? like the 'zhao1 cai2 mao1' frm japan? hahhaha hopefully it come true.. n also say that i will have a son in future..one who will make me go bonkers... HELp... i'm in trouble.. other parts cant say here.. too private though.. heez... oh yah n my mini laser surgery to remove my long time 'fren' .. yucks.. a fren who torture me everyday as i walk.. now still pain lo.. pray that the wound can recover faster.... yah.. shall penned off now... getting tired... more updates soon yeah? =) cheerios!!

2005-05-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

sweet? hahaha.. just learnt how to put photos on my blog thats y... heez

Love this pic to bitz.. =)

2005-05-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

cool?

NewBorn

2005-05-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

wow... itz been a long time since i penned down my tots..well i have seen ppl been updating their bloggies but hell no... dont think i will have to time for that...maybe once a blue moon? haha.. well.. 1st of all THANKs Casey .. for the lil encouragement... though i didnt know u or even seen u b4 but i would also like to wish u all the best in ur future endeavours.. *if possible u can leave me a message on friendster.. and we can be friends? okie... so what has been happening in my life?? well think i got lots to say..: an encounter with a fortune teller; then end & the beginning of my career; my mini surgery with the warts and my new shopping-till-you-broke life; latest movie :HOUSE OF WAX?? haha... itz VERY late now..i need to get up at 6:30am in the morning for work... shall pen down everything one by one when i m free kayz? maybe weekend when Vesak weekend is coming.... heezz... have been looking forward to that!!! SMILEZ

Please name yaself k?

2005-04-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

Yoz ppl.. pls leave ya name when u wanna leave a comment on my posting k? i wanna know who u r .. thankz =)

ReTreat at Pulai Spring

2005-04-12T13:08:00.000+08:00

Came back from retreat last sun...went on fri morning altough was meeting throughout the day, sat night we went KTV.. so sad.. the songs r so old.. and most of them in hokkien.. we ended singing oldies and hokkien songs... with vincent, irene, ellen, alicia, shann0n, ah leow. drank heinekein while singing our hearts out. vincent said.. when he close his eyes to listen my voice singing dosent match when he open his eyes and when i speak normally.. *hmm.. so what was that suppose to mean* well .. anyway.. on sat morning n sun morning we went jogging with ah leow shannon and alicia. on sun vincent join us.. he became my personal trainer and motivator.. my gosh so embarassing... but it was fun on the whole.... FOOD was delicious.. ate lke there was no tomorrow.. hahah. muzt go again some time yeah..

My Virgin Donation

2005-04-07T12:34:00.000+08:00

I cant believe myself too... in a spur of a moment.. i just went to donate my blood in the nation's blood bank.. of course i was scared... practically biting my jacket... tearing soon.. but i held on.. thinking of the moment that this packet of blood can be someonelse's life.... i held on... in the end... the bandage was so cute a yello colour bandage with smileys faces... the sense of satisfaction was indescribable.. if u havent done so... please help... provided u r healthy k? heez

我太温柔!!!

2005-03-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

原来只要几个字改变了语气和方式一句话也有不同解释原来只要几个人改变了角色和位子一份爱也会完全变质我在你身边学习着当一个影子 (温柔太多余这句话听了太多次) 倾听你所有过往的悲伤和心事(倾听是他的责任早已经不关我的事) 或许时间会改变这关系和位子自从他出现开始我就什么都不是(我连影子都不是) 是谁说过别太温柔你的事有我懂伤有我痛所以不怕寂寞是谁说过别再温柔笑容不必谁懂有他陪我夜里不怕寂寞是谁说过要我别太温柔终于温柔的最后结局是放手放手后剩什么这样你才能接受他所有温柔才拥有笑容是谁说过爱过才懂有些事不必说伤不必痛不过害怕寂寞爱过才懂不必再说我会一个人走带走寂寞希望你好好过温柔太多也许只是种折磨

well, whAT IS writen above.. if u cant read chinese text too bad... haha.. but those coloured in pink, red, yellow n green describes me now....... everyword...... haiz.... so sad..... sobz sobzz.... read them under the same colour k? =) nth more can help me express what i m now n what i m feeling now.

HELP!!!

2005-03-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

goodness me..so tired.. was at the roadshow at Suntec Convention Hall n will be there for the next 2 days... i m xtremely tired n wearing out soon... need some energy boost... where r u? stand the whole day n my feet r turning purple... gonna see a purple pineapple soon babe..hahaha... faced many rejections.. but itz okay.. thatz where i can grow right? really very tired.. don wanna tok much now.... *yawns* gonna be punctured soon le.......................

Tired chionging day

2005-02-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

Went selva's 21st bday at The Chevrons Ballroom..Met up with a lot of my sec sch buddies...as well as class mates.. long time no nsee terence n ralph.. frm pri sch till now le..Very happy to see n hear that they r all doing well.. army? haha... after everything we went chionging at dblO. Had great fun..we drank , we dance.. almoz went crazy.. my 2nd time dancing with heels that i have to take off my heels n dance on my bare foot... oopz.. haha...well hope to meet up with them soon/... n not forgetting my KhaKis... the Crazy BabE Club.. weeeeee... heehee

jOin mY fRieNdster

2005-02-27T02:36:00.000+08:00

Time Passes By like The Fast traffiC on The Road...

2005-02-26T18:05:00.000+08:00

wow.. itz been a long long time that i blog le...oh no.. duno if next time really can find the time to blog a not...so tired.. this time i m really tired le man.. so busy at work that i don even have time for myself not to even say for other ppl...haiyo...BUT at least it stops me frm thinking abt other stuffs.. heehee..many things happen though.. now dunno still got the energy n strength to pen them down one by one a not.. At work.. was really busy with the few seminars n fairs at ntu n nus n then there was this sales symphosium at Yishun Safra country club.. had fun there n learn lotsa stuffs.. n after gg thru the animal personality test...i found out that i m a horse-peacock... haha.. i'm sure u muz be wondering whatz that huh? itz for u to find out my dear.. hehe..n also... frm my MSN nick u will also be able to know what i've learnt... if only u can see.. n understand it in the first place... After sales symphosium i went to SAF Yacht club for dinner with my colleagues n bosses.. had really great time there..gossiping... n toking abt what kind of criteria will we be looking for in our partner.. i said: sense of security!!...Oh ya...the view was FantaSTic i mUSt say!!!! WOW.. got a chance muz go there kayZ... followed by sleepless night.. meaning NOT enuff sleep.... cuz work work work.... only abt 4 hrs of sleep a day.. everyone in my dept like Walking corpse... luckily shann went on leave.. haiyo so envy.. well.. oh ya.. m looking forward to the retreat at Pulai Spring.. but dunno will it be successful not.. although retreat is the word.. but WE r gg there for MEEETIN.. oh gosh...but anyway at least can leave office for awhile.... me n my colleague even have some kinda suicide symptoms already...hanging ourselves.. stabbing each other n all that... wanting to camp in office n all that.. all the funny funny ideas...oh yah... today went out with tian n Yu... went CHimes.. liBerte.. as usual... had fun there... then yu was telling me taht her US or was it UK fren like me... *shocked*... but *flattered* haha..... oki.... not funny k... so don luff... aiyah... i think my brain stopped workkiing le... so i better pen off now.. before i says all those stuffs that i m not suppose to say;..anyway.. love myself ..hoping for someone to love me soon.will it be u out there? ayy... ok.. here i go again...anyway i don think i have time for anyone now... haha... take care everyoneeee...

Do i really look so approachable??

2005-02-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

HAiyo... everytime i take a cab .. the cab driver sure chat with me wan... this time worse... can greet xin nian kuai le to me for 4, 5 times since i step into the cab.. i tot.. shucks... don tell me this uncle got short term memory.... then there he was tellin me abt his younger days... his hobbies when he was young n also now.. at present when he has no customer.. he will meet up with his friends to drink n ktv.. so HIGh right?? more happening than me.. haha.. then he told me where he live... woah.. basically like i know him inside out le.. hahhahaahahah...ok... letz stop abt the cab driver.. or i think i can go on n on. sianzzzz... still sick.. n gettin frm bad to worse... haiyo.. busy with work, stress, less amt of sleepin time.. n then tml still got CO... till midnight... MY GOSH,... can anyone tell me... is busy a gd thing or a bad thing?? yah... then letz say if i m busy then i won be able to let my mind thinking abt 'other stuffs' ... so letz treat it as a good thing then... today i wore a mask at work... i ask Alicia bring for me .. cuz i don wanna spread my flu arnd esp to my TMs... or else... the one who really is in trouble is me ... haiyiozz.. when i wore my mask... everyone was saying.. here comes the nurse... hahha.. funny right... n then i made a fool of myself by getting lost in the carpark at the basement below my office... woah kaoz.. the moz i impt thing is i was not alone... i was pushing a trolley.. yes... u did not see wrongly.. itz a trolley to move heavy stuffs wan... not those u use in supermktz... i was practically roaming all arnd the carpark. n when i see ppl come collect their cars..i muz pretend to be cool... as if i really know the way n everything... haizyo..anyway.. in the end i got to push it to the lobby..n was held up by the security guard.. who was shocked! (not supposed to push the trolley on the well polished marble floor in the lobby.. oopz) luckily in the end i manage to reach my office with the kind help of one of the security guards.. heehee... ok.. gtg watch tapes le...thatz all for today..... hope tml everything goes smoothly.... best of luck!!! =)

A day of tissues

2005-02-16T17:06:00.000+08:00

oh dear...i m sick...having a bad flu with a bad cough too..giddy spells at times....making me sound more liek a donald duck than sexy...hahah... tissues r all arnd me n then fisherman friends!!haiyo.. *shaking head* but i think i was solid enuff.... was so sick n i can go Ktv!! with shann n mabel.. had a great time as usual.. with love songs.. rock songs.... cool~~~. drank ice honey... with the fruits..today was sian at work.. busy... n the thing is tml still got meeting!! =(
well.. thatz life.. what can i say...oh yah.. i really felt that my blog is a little too plain... gosh.. i saw really nice n lovely ones... hope i can upgrade mine in time to come.. well u guys out there.. if u know how.. don hesitate to show me the ropes.. i m more than willing to learn..hee.. ok.. i gtg now.. my flu is revisitng me again... now i felt like i m like la bi xiao xin's story got one ah dai like that.. the pi di drooping,... oopz.. yeee... thatz gross.. of cuz i will nt allow that...hahaok..... signing off... cheer up gal... u will find the joy to whisper sweet nothings to that special someone.. though i m now whispering sweet nothings to no one else.... but i m sure i'm near already... juz wait n see huh.... =)

Eve of Valentine's Day

2005-02-14T14:21:00.000+08:00

yah....valentine's day is coming... it'z irritating me to the max...haha..if u know me then u will know what i m toking abt.. well anyway... i don think this valentine will be any different from my past valentine... maybe even more bored... boredeR? yah 'bored' is the correct grammer...so sad.. for this year's CNY...i bacame a part time/full time gambler... queen of gambler ? no.... i lost quite a bit.. so sad... actually was wining one... but... lady luck left me after staying for awhile.... played majong n bang lak.. my mummy was telling me that i m gg to become a gambler le.... cuz i played till the wee hrs of the day for 3 consecutive days? but still got quite some time to sleep... so now not totally look like zombie like tat... haha.. so sian sian sian... tml is V day..... chocolate? roses? whatever..... stay away frm me .. or i will bite... heehee.... oh yah.. anyway... i got a new visitor in my blog... thanks maxster for ya comment... i was juz wondering how u looked for me.. cuz i m REALLY new to this man... oopz.z.z..okie... gtg stop... gg to watch my baskets of tapes le+tml still got work work work n work... haiz... anyway... when u r given something, u got to make the best out of it... (when u r given a lemon make lemonade out of it babe) then u will enjoy life... right? love myself.. hahahahhaha

My virgin blog

2005-02-13T03:21:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, this is my virgin posting..oops..anyway.. hope that u ppl out there would be able to know me more thru this pineappleblog of mine..hahha..n u know what... this will become my next best friend... internet pal..heez (@^-^@)